Satan, please take your weather back!

My mom makes me giggle...but it's no joke, soooooo hot! Yet my cat wants to be all up on me--I love you kitty ::BUT DON'T TOUCH ME!::

Wow, it has been a while since I've written in here. Here comes more spurts of my madness.

growing up is exciting,and eventful, and uplifting, and all hitting me at once!
Emily got a job and is moving back to the cities--i am super excited for her.. but it's going to be quite the change from living with someone whom I've lived with for almost five years to living with the love of my life. It will be exciting and completely new, and honestly maybe that's what I've needed..except I'd like the completely new to not be in Winona..but I'll take what I can get--trying to be optimistic.

I'd appreciate it if our government opened back up. Politics how I despise you.

I have a new addiction that I do every day.. read. On my porch (well, not today..too hot!) but I subsituted my beach chair for my couch, smack dab in front of the air conditioning!

More addictions: True Blood and Army Wives. It's nice being able to relate to Army wives, but damn that show makes me cry like a baby! But still it helps me connect to people who technically don't exist..but they really do. Speaking of Army wives..it sounds like Nate and I will be mobilizing somewhere after we are married; rumor has it Mississippi. I have always wanted to live somewhere random, but I can't say I would've chosen Mississippi. PS I remember learning how to spell Mississippi--I was on a roadtrip with my mom and dad. How I remember that? good question..but I remember giggling because I kept ending it with a "y" and then kept asking "why?" when they'd tell me that was incorrect.

Less than a month (officially) until Nate is done with his current mobilization..I CANNOT WAIT! I am so anxious, it finally feels close! Yet, at the same time it feels so far away and makes me miss him even more..weird how that works.

I am very confused in a certain aspect of my life that I don't care to get into a whole lot of detail about.. but I've been picked over..which usually isn't a huge issue, but this one hurts. I don't know how to respond to it--so I have decided just not to respond at all.

I did a disgusting thing this weekend--I left my lunchbox in my car--yes steaming hot car all weekend--and no, naturally it wasn't empty.. had salad makings and blueberries in it--wow did my car STINK! I didn't even dare open it and threw out my lunchbag :( I liked that lunchbag.

I still have dreams about me opening my own cafe. But more recently I've been thinking about how amazing it would be to go get my masters as a behavioral analyst. I was thinking if we do get mobilized, I found that St. Cloud is in the top ten online programs to become a behavioral analyst--and honestly, why not do it? It'd be the perfect time to do so. It's not like I'd find some fantastic job for a year anyway..so why not further my education? It's weird, in some strange way I miss school and writing papers. Definitely don't miss taking tests though. I don't know if it was the routine or what. But I think some online schooling would be good for me--granted I've avoided looking at how much it'd cost me. Time will tell...maybe i will end up going to Culinary School like I've dreamed of and own my own restaurant or cafe some day.

Speaking of restaurants..had one of the most disgusting experiences tonight. Me, Emily, and Michaela went out for dinner at the Green Mill. It's decent, for Winona. Nothing to wow about. well to start--we were starving and our waitress ignored us..took 20 minutes till she took her order..and then another 45 minutes until we got our food. well Emily and I both ordered the Spinach Tortillini (yes I was being bad) but it sounded so good..anyway--pretty sure it was sitting under that heating lamp since we put in our order--it looked almost like pot stickers when we got it. Then we both took a bite--and it had that "I shouldn't have microwaved my leftovers from over a week ago" taste. And it was cold. Sorry, but I don't have th ekind of money to just let a nice meal go. So we complained. Question: Is it annoying to anyone else that after you've been presented a bad meal and you ask to talk to the manager, and they tell you that they don't understand what "tastes like old food" tastes like? Yeah--over and over. Then our waitress 10 minutes later comes back and says how she heard our food wasn't good--which we would have happily told her if she was around.. and that she thought it looked great..well lady apparently for one you don't know what good food looks like--because like i said it didn't even look appetizing (and I've ordered this dish many a times before) and did you taste my food before you brought it to me? I was starving and not about to eat this food..you've given us nothing but terrible service--yes, I am now going to have an attitude, especially since you started one with me...no, we are no longer hungry and don't want to wait another 45 minutes for another dish. and yes, we want the bill..and naturally 15 minutes later she comes back with the bill. Thank god for good company because we were already talking about just walking out--it was ridiculous!

Wow, I sound exciting. ha!

Well, time to pop in my Netflix (yes, I received another disk of True Blood..and it stinks that there are only two episodes per disk) and doze off. Stay cool and hydrated everyone!

I'M ENGAGED!

Life is blissful. I will be marrying the man of my dreams: the man who stole my heart, the man who even after three plus years gives me butterflies every time I see him, my best friend, my bear.

May 21st, 2011. It was cheesy but us cheesy and absolutely perfect!

My next stepping stone in life, hand in hand with my best friend.

The Quiet Place

Sitting on my porch
Soaking in some sun
Listening to music
And listening to the birds


Taking a minute to let the vitamin D soak into my pores
Skinny jeans tossed aside and sweatpants replaced.


Have you ever listened to music that just allows you to close your eyes and sign your little heart out? And you just feel it take over? that's good music.

Whoops cat almost jumped off the porch--time for him to go inside..
13.5lbs down.

Pad Thai for lunch--very tastey.



It's Mother's Day tomorrow. I wish all mothers a very happy day. I wish I could be with my mom tomorrow...but alas work calls... I have the most beautiful, intelligent, brilliant, creative, warm hearted, strong mother that I am so lucky to call mine. I LOVE YOU MOMMY!

Pocket Full of Sunshine

Easy A. I have to say, I really enjoyed this movie. This scene is potentially one of my favorites..maybe because it reminds me of a house with my roommate a few years back. Either way. enjoyable. and I hope there is sunshine tomorrow so I can store some in my pocket in case Jack Frost wants to visit again.

I Was A Sweet Girl

My mom found this in her drawer today.. It made me smile and tear up. For those of you who cannot read it:

Dear (Mr.Mrs.Mz) Toothfairy, Thank you for all the things you did for me. I was wondering if you could give a little something to my mom because she really got all the pain out of this one and helped me with all the others I had! Thank You! Love, Marjanae Zerehi


Hahaha..oh man... and sadly my handwriting hasn't gotten much better since the time the toothfairy came to me..

My mom shared a Smothered Porkchop WW recipe with me.. I made it last night with my own touches (with recommendations from Chef Mommy) and man it was delicious!!! Though I was a little bad and made Tadik with it instead of just rice..whoops..but still amazing. I will def make it again.

I am so excited to go to Vegas.

I am so excited that it's beautiful outside.

I am so excited to see my family and baby Leah and twin.

I need to stop letting my weird work hours affect my workout time(it's making me slack)

I need to start reading outside more often with this awesome weather.

My phone is being a bum and I don't like it.

I can't wait to be working 8-4pm starting in May for the summer. It's going to suck going back to regular hours but hey I get to actually enjoy a summer!

Namaste

I joined the YMCA--and am LOVING IT!

Yesterday, I just went to the gym and holy cow are their tredmills high tech! Afterwards, I immensely enjoyed the steam room.

It takes a bit getting use to the openness in the dressing rooms. I am just not use to being in an atmosphere that is so open.

Today, I got up and decided to try their yoga class. I was definitely the youngest there (by 35 years +) but the stretches still did the trick. And yes, I rewarded myself with the steam room afterwards!!!

This past weekend, Nate and I took a shot at making some Japanese food. It is still just as delicious a few days later!

I am currently enjoying some rice noodles, veggies, and beef with the sun shining on me.

NAMASTE!

I've Learnt That..

* you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

* no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

* it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

* it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

* you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.

* no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.

* you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

* we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

* there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

* true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

* just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

* maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

* no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

* no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

* just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

* we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

* you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

* there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

* no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.

* the people you care most about in life are taken from you to soon.

* although the word "love" can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used.

* love is not for me to keep, but to pass on to the next person I see.

* there are people who love you dearly but just don't know how to show it.

* even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

* every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch-holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

* I still have a lot to learn......